Monday, December 20, 2010

Busy Weekend

Well, it is late, and I should be in bed, but I thought I would quickly (?) blog about the last few days.

First, on Wednesday, we went to my genetsists appointment at RIH. They come here about 2-3 times a year, and they had a cancellation, so we were able to get in. As far as having children goes, they don't seem to think that there should be a problem. They gave me some blood work to do, and I was only able to have have part of it done, so I will get the rest done this week. It takes about 8 weeks to get the results. I was able to get my CF testing done, too. As far as having a child of ours having Turners' Syndrome, she didn't think I would pass it on to the baby, so I am very happy about that. I am not sure that I mentioned this b4, but there is an "x" missing from one of my chromosones. Odd, hey?

On Thursday, the Christmas spirit finally I made some cookies, the first of about 10 dozen (types). Yay! I am bringing some home to my family, as well as to our neighbours, and to our pastoral staff.

Friday, we went to the neurologists appointment, only to discover that he didn't have my LP results! The hospital wouldn't send them to him. I was not impressed. I am hoping that I can see my Family Dr. this week or next to get the results.

I think our neighbours are moving..this would make me happy! They have actually been more quiet that also makes me happy.

We have been given some extra gifts, so we have gone shopping for some extra fun things, and some baking ingredients.

Friday evening was my work Christmas party. I dragged Anker out, and we actually enjoyed ourselves. It was at the Keg, and the food was very good! We even came home with some chocolates:) Friday evening, I started on some Christmas cards, and we watched the last half of a cute Christmas movie on TV.

Saturday, I had a nice long chat with a good friend, and then I started baking more cookies, and I went to a movie with my next door neighbour. It wasn't the greatest movie, but it was ok. Came home and made even more cookies, and got ready for a party at my friends house across town. That was when it started to snow. Lovely. Actually, it was nice and pretty, just not great for driving. The party was fun, and we had lots of yummy food, and laughter, while some Christmas classics droned on in the background. Came home in worse road conditions...I hate driving in the snow. I also found a pack of "Dutch Blitz" cards laying around, and asked if anyone wanted to play. I hadn't played that game in probably 4 or 5 years. It's a good thing my heart is in (fairly) good shape, b/c man, was that game intense!

Sunday, a lovely church service, and then out to lunch with friends. Came home and relaxed, even though there were dishes to be done. Watched "The Dawn Treader" Sunday night, complete with popcorn and pop. (We got that as a Christmas gift)It was actually a good movie, and I don't usually like fantasy.

I made shortbread for the FIRST TIME EVER today, and it turned out really good! I am not a HUGE shortbead person, but I like it once in awhile. I used my Uncle's mom's recipe (not my gramma, in case you were wondering), and I will definitely use it again. I even salvaged the second batch when I accidently melted the butter..oops!

I make a much better candy cane hot chocolate that Tim Hortons:)

Ok..I was just about to close, when I wondered if I had written about last wknd, and I had goes..

Just the highlights..
I attended "Uncle Phil's Diner", our Christmas concert/play last Friday (10th). It was good, but I missed Anker being in it. I also ran errands, and I had coffee with my friend before the play.

Saturday, I just sat and enjoyed our tree, while our fake fireplace played on the DVD/TV, and Christmas music played. I read Christmas magazines, and i had yummy hot chocolate.

A friends mom invited me for coffee at Starbucks..she even paid..triple yum! I just hung out on Saturday night...

Sunday, I went to church alone, and grabbed Mcd's w/ some friends. Watched "Amazing Race" in the evening, and I am very glad the Doctors won! I can't wait until Feb. 20..the all stars!

Tuesday, I went to a friends house for brunch with some friends...yummy BLT's w/ homemade bread, and decorated shortbead cookies for dessert:) YUMMY!

Well, that's about all for now....I am about to head to bed...I was thinking yesterday that I do feel extremely blessed....

I will try to blog at least once more before

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 25 and 26

Day 25 The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I fully believe the reason that I am alive today is that God healed me when I was born! I am sure that most of you know that I was born with various medical problems, and that I should have died..if not at birth, then shortly after. I got my records from when I was born, and it so amazing what all I went through.

But, on another note, I think I am alive today the same as anyone else the grace of God..his protection, etc.

Day 26 Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

I have thought of giving up on life once in my life (well, "once" meaning in a span of a few months). I had some depression awhile back, and I did consider (although I don't think I was really serious about it) taking my life. I even was going through my meds, and figuring out what would go "best". Ok..sick, I know..and not very Christmas-like. I think mainly, it was because I just didn't know where to turn. I hated that I was single, and I really didn't have a life..not a lot of friends, and certainly no b/f at the time, and no real career. But that wasn't why I was in a depression. (Although I think that was a tiny part of it) I just felt alone, and just general doom. I really don't even know why I did have just happened. Thankfully, that major part of it didn't last long. Part of the reason that I didn't give up, was my sister. I couldn't imagine what my parents would/how (to) tell her that her older sister whom she looked up to (ok, I am tooting my own horn here, but I am sure she does!), took her own life. I decided that I would just stick it out:) I have had several times where I wanted to give up (not suicide so much, as just not wanting to get up the next morning, etc) more recently, but I realise that God has me here for a reason:)

I will do a medical/life post on us this wknd, but I was re-reading my last post, I had a typo..I took Anker to the hospital on Tuesday..not "the day" as I had typed.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Where are you, Christmas?

I don't know what it is this year, but I just can't get into the Christmas Spirit. I really could just skip it, and be ok with it. I was reading a blog, and there was a list that they had already done, and it made me ill, just thinking about it (and she has two small children), and a list of the things that they wanted to do. Still made me ill. I have done things to try and make me feel Christmas-y. I have walked through malls, glistening with Christmas lights (that was very nice, I must admit) I had Starbucks' and T.H's Christmas drinks (in Christmas cups, mind you). I have even had egg nog. I have put up our tree, even decorated around here a bit. I have attended two Christmas Concerts...I have even watched a Christmas movie or two..and I still feel down. I am still trying to sort it all out...sigh.

Anker and I have both been sick. I am getting over mine, and he is still sick:( He actually had to bow out of the Christmas play (the one I went to tonight), b/c he is just so run down and still sick. I hope he gets better before Christmas. I actually took him to the hospital the day, as he was having chest pain. They took blood work, ECG, and an X-Ray, and they said that it was just his cardiac wall being inflammed..nice. He is still having pains. A hot water bottle seems to help him with the pain, along with some meds.

I went to Vancouver Sun/Mon. It was a short, expensive, but nice trip. I got in around 3, and found my B&B. It is a cute little place, just a few blocks from VGH. I would definitely stay there again. I was going to go out and have dinner, but I didn't want to go out in the dark, and since I was paying for the room, I thought I might as well, enjoy it. I ordered Chinese food, and it was really good:) (I even brought some home!!) I enjoyed having the TV to myself. I slept fairly well. I was thinking on the way down (I took the bus), that I think that was the first time that I had ever had a hotel room alone (not including being with the family, and sharing an ajoining room with my sister). After a nice breakfast, and packing up, I wandered around a bit (I had a few hours to kill), and it surprisingly went really fast. I wandered around the mall, and enjoyed a Starbucks (yes, I have to have one every time I am in Vancouver). So, the appointment:) I saw Dr. Miller (not Dr. Ehlin, as I thought), and she has ordered me an u/s for Jan, to see if the cyst has grown, or is even still there. She couldn't feel it, but that doesn't really mean anything. I wasn't there that long, and was done (after a blood test) at about 4. After getting my bags at the B&B, and took a taxi to the Bus Depot, and ate my supper of left over Chinese food, and french fries. The trip home went well. I slept a bit, as I didn't feel like even reading, or watching a movie.

This week has been ok. Just really down, and I am trying to figure it out.

Last weekend, Anker and I went to the TVCO at our church. I put on the dress that I had worn to J's wedding 2 yrs ago, and I discovered that it was too big!! I wore it anyway.

I really hope our neighbours get evicted. That would be the best Christmas present.

I plan on just being home and cleaning up. I may read and start on some Christmas cards. We have gotten a few this year.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 21, 22, 23 &24

Day 21 (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

To be honest, I really don't get this question...I mean..what do they mean "what do you do"? LOL..Ok..I JUST re-read this question...I thought it meant if BOTH of us were in an accident..ok. Well, I would probably feel really bad, and probably go and visit them (if I could), or pray really hard for forgiveness, and I would probably feel guilty that we had the fight in the first place.

Day 22 Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

I wish I hadn't compromised on my morals. This is something that I will always wish that I hadn't done.

Day 23 Something you wish you had done in your life.

I wish I had done more schooling. Gotten more a "career". I kept putting this off, mainly because 1) I didn't REALLY know what I wanted to do (I still don't), and 2) It is so hard to get into secondary education, and I just kept thinking that I wouldn't get in, or I was just too lazy. But now, looking back I wish I had gone further in my schooling. I did take an MOA course, but for the most part, it really didn't get me anywhere..and now, most people don't even have to take a course! Go, figure!! I am not sure if I want to take anymore schooling, as I don't really know what I want to be when I grow up!!

Day 24 Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Well, I don't really have a playlist..there are a lot of songs that I like...For Anker and I...

Why don't we Just Dance
Josh Turner

Okay...I can't think of any right now..and I am

I am off to Vancouver tomorrow to see an oncologist for my cyst. We put the tree and lights up yesterday, but that is as far as we got. I am sick with a cold, and I don't have the energy to do anymore...however, I think I will do bit more today, along with getting ready. I feel blah..but I did sleep well last night. Anker is now sick, too:( Double blah...Well, that is all for now...yes, I know this makes me not very smart (re: 30 days), but I just don't have the head space to elaborate:)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 17,18,19 &20

I am getting down to the wire, people!!

Day 17 A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Well, obviously The Bible has been the most influential book I have read. As far as others? I really loved Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. In my opinion, every one should read it, and every man should read it twice. It's the "modern" story of Gomar, set in in th e 1800's (I's been awhile), and it's sooo good!!! It's definitely a book that I want to own.

Day 18 Your views on gay marriage.

Please don't hate me, and I hope I don't lose any friends over this,'s wrong. Plain and simple, and I don't understand why other Christians don't feel the same way. Did God create two men? No, he created man and woman. That being said, however, I don't believe that we should be gay bashers, and love them, but don't encourage their life style.

Day 19 What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Really, this should be an entire post, to show how smart I am..but for the sake of time, I will keep it short. I don't believe in religion. I believe in a relationship with Jesus. It's like having a relationship with anyone else in your life. I don't know where I'd be (or some other people in my life) if Jesus wasn't in my life. I fully believed that God healed me when I was a baby, and that He healed me this spring. topic a bit..sorry...I think everyone needs something to believe in. Take Christmas..even the most hard-hearted Atheist celebrates it (ok, I don't know that for sure...but I am sure that they do). Why? Because they want something to believe in. I think some religions, are just pure evil...they promote plural marriages, abuse, honor-killings, etc. So, I don't (obviously) agree with those. Some people think that religion is a crutch, something to lean on. Those are probably some of the same people that HAVE to look at their horoscope every day, and that HAVE to have a psychic reading..THAT is a crutch, and it's not real (or it is "real", just wrong). God, not religion has a place in this life, most definitely.

Day 20 Your views on drugs and alcohol.

You mean the good drugs? Bring 'em on! are talking about nasty drugs? Right..I wish they didn't exsist. They have torn people's lives and families apart. Same with alcohol. I don't really drink. We were raised in a non-drinking home (I don't think my parents have even drank wine..ever), and of course, we never did drugs. Anker and I rarely drink. It's too expensive, and I would rather have iced tea, or Coke! But, taken in moderation, I really don't have a problem "Moderation" being only about a drink or two. Like drugs, alcohol can (and does) ruin families, which is just so sad. Also, when drugs and alcohol are consumed people do dumb stuff. Like last weekend, for example. Our neigbours had a party, they drank, and they ran around doing stupid stuff..damaging property, and trespassing. People become beligerant, and sleep around, women get raped, people get murdered. It's not a good thing....drugs and alcohol:( Just say NO!!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 13, 14, 15, & 16

Okay, so time is really of the essense, here, and I would really like to just get on with blogging about more important the weather (snowy) and Christmas (I can't really seem to get in the spirit yet).

I woke up with a cold this morning. Yesterday, one of my pills didn't go down properly, and it made a scratch in my throat..and this morning, I woke up with a cold!

This weekend is going to be busy! Looking forward to it, though!

Day 13...A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
I really don't have a band or an artist that has gotten me through some tough times..I DID, however, really enjoy the "Shout to the Lord" album when I was in the hospital in 1996. This last time, I enjoyed several songs that my SIL put on an MP3 Player for me.

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

I really don't have a hero that has let me down...maybe Sandi Patty when she got her divorce years ago..I really loved her..she was my favourite artist. I really loved her music, and I had all her albums. I remember being really sad when she got her divorce.

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Well, probably since I know have one...a Car! I didn't have a car until I got married. I love having one. I used the bus and my own two feet for YEARS!! Now, that I have one, I don't think I could live with out it!!

Oh..and I guess my health...since well, when you don't have your health, you really aren't living!! Trust's much better when you have your health!!

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

This one's easy. My PCOS. I hate's very frustrating...I never know when my body is going to do something...or what it's going to do!